Positive Decisions

I was planning on posting a little blurb about the dilemma of dressing appropriately and comfortable in the Pacific Northwest...but I've just been loving my classes, and the deep discussions we've been having about meaning, intention, context, and human emotion/action..so it all feels a little trivial now. Here's what I wore to class today. 

I spent this weekend changing my schedule; I wanted to drop the course that had me anxious and stuttering last week and it was the best decision of the quarter. I'm not new to this whole University life. I was in school for three years at a conservative, private university in New York City so I know what it's all about. Last time around I would have classes that I really didn't enjoy. Whether it was the professor, my classmates, a combination of the two, or something totally unrelated that I just couldn't pinpoint, I would have these courses where I felt awkward and anxious and like I didn't belong. Most of the time I would end up earning a B- or a C in the class, I had let my anxiety get the best of me and impact my work. Well I've been away from the classroom for such a long time, I know without a doubt who I am - what makes me happy, what makes me uncomfortable, how I'll react and what impact it will have. So this time around I am not going to sit in a classroom that has me feeling...off. I only want a positive experience this time around. Doing something entirely for yourself and your happiness is exciting, it feels good, it makes me all warm and fuzzy; I suggest you all do it sometime - or all the time!

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First Day(s)

Thursday was my first day back in the classroom in three long years..and damn, was it weird. As to be expected I was a ball of nerves, the memories I created of the classroom from my previous experiences at St. John's weren't very comforting on this gloomy Thursday morning. However, I survived! And I did it while dressed like somewhat of an 80's barbie-doll. 

My first class was awesome! It's a workshop style course which I've never experienced anything like in my college career. Centering around three large projects and a lot of group discourse, I think it will be fun and fairly easy.
The second class of the day had me a little high-strung unfortunately. Don't get me wrong - the professor and classmates seem awesome, but it's a lot of hard work and A TON of discussion >.< boy do I hate participation based classes...I just get so nervous! Well, today proved to be no different; I was a sweaty, stuttering mess and I for some bizarre reason couldn't keep my damn hand down! I talked my ass off and I'm pretty sure I blacked out temporarily. I don't know what came over me! I was hit with a wave of strong opinions and ideas and couldn't keep my mouth shut. I hope I didn't make too big of a fool of myself. You have to understand, I am the person who sits somewhere smack-dab in the middle of the room. I make as little eye contact as possible and I only speak when forced or when threatened with a failing grade. Basically, I'm like Charlie from Perks of Being a Wallflower - I write down the answers on my notepad instead of reciting it aloud to the class. Luckily I was able to make a quick exit and escape back to my apartment immediately after class; I was done for the day!

Fridays are a breeze for me this quarter, I only have one class and it is AWESOME. It's a Linguistics course which is fairly unfamiliar to me so I'm excited to learn some new information. Also, the professor is entertaining, kind, and easy going, so I think it's something I'll really enjoy. Another plus - the professor is a talker, so there won't be too much opportunity for me to embarrass myself like I did the previous day.

The first few days of school I will be a basic B in mostly American Apparel, I did work there this summer the the discount has heavily impacted my wardrobe so bare with me.

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Info Fair

So today was my first solo student adventure at my new school. Although I've been living up here in my new apartment since Saturday, classes haven't begun yet so it's been feeling a little bit more like a staycation than anything else. Holed up in my cozy bed marathoning Scandal is hardly what I call a true taste of my new life. This afternoon however was the Student Organization Info Fair on campus and so finally, some social activity! 

I have to admit to you though, it was anything but social; sure I made a few strictly-eye contact-encounters but sadly the only real interaction I had was when a boy handing out flyers cheerfully said "interested in studying abroad?" as he pushed a piece of colored paper into my hand. "Study abroad? oh no thanks, I'm a transfer and I already studied abroad" end conversation. I'm not bummed though! I wandered the event, looking at different booths but after not being able to find the one I was really interested in, I found a nice shady spot to sit down and read/people watch (mostly people watch, let's be real). After the fair was over I wandered through the library which is G-O-R-G-E-O-U-S! I can't wait to spend countless hours studying and writing in the corners of that library this year. 

Anyways here is what I wore to the Info Fair this afternoon:

American Apparel "Sofia" bodysuit, Cheap Monday "Donna" jeans, Brandy Melville cardigan, Forever21 slide sandals, Vintage belt & backpack

I look forward to sharing with you, not only my adventures but also the outfits I'll be wearing this upcoming quarter! I've been shopping all summer and have put together a small wardrobe that I am very proud of. I know that being at the hippy-liberal school that I'm at will have me sticking out like a sore thumb most of the time, but what I wear is a form of my own self-expression, and I look forward to sharing that with you.

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Guess Who's Back

COMING SOON

UPDATE

After a nearly 9 month sabbatical I am ready to dive deep into the blog again. There are a lot of new and exciting things going on and it's been a long process of getting ready for the next 10 months; alas I am here and I am happy to share. Later this month I will be returning to the classroom to finally finish my degree in English Literature. after abruptly dropping all courses at St. John's University in August 2012 I have spent three years working and living life as a regular adult. Now ready to wrap up this chapter and move on to great things, I've enrolled in a school that is smaller, more liberal, and located in my home state of Washington - so this couldn't be a better fit for me. 

IN HER CELL

My hopes for this blog are to share with you my personal style, interests, how I balance academics, my social and love life, and so much more. Through photos, videos and little anecdotes I just want to express myself freely and share with you who I really am; hopefully while learning a little more about you, the reader, as. You can expect regular posts to begin Friday September 25th. 

As always, thank you for reading.

xx